Update: The comic book shop just followed me on Twitter. The owner is claiming he didn’t know I was fired. I have tweeted that he should talk to me privately but I have no idea if he will or if he has seen those tweets. I honestly don’t know what to believe. If he truly did not know I was fired then he should make this situation right though I realize that would be difficult. If his friend fired me over some jealousy or something the owner needs to think about what’s best for his business. To have an friend in the store that perpetuates rape culture and fires people without consulting the owner or to have an employee who genuinely cares about the store and wants it to be a safe and comfortable environment for everyone.
Thank you to everyone who reblogged my previous post. The story has taken off on Twitter. I have various news outlets interested but I admit I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed right now and a bit of cold feet. I’m afraid of retaliation. I’m afraid of losing the little income that I have because of this. I did want people to know what happened. I just didn’t expect this overwhelming response. I appreciate it though. It is reassuring to see so many people of all genders dismayed at what happened and I am grateful for all of my new Twitter followers and supporters. I’m still trying to decide what to do. Part of me wants to climb back in my clam shell and hide. I really just wanted today to be a nice normal day. I wanted to go to work and do my job and come home and work on fan fiction. Instead, I end up fired because of some boy’s club bologna and am now in a whirlwind. Don’t get me wrong. I think speaking out is important. That’s why I did it. But I run on a low level of spoons as most of you know and I’m just feeling it now.
Anyway, this is mostly an apology because I know certain of you were hoping for certain writing related things today and it’s going to have to wait now. I’m trying to wind down for the night. Maybe I’ll pull an all-nighter. Not sure.
As you guys have probably figured out by now, I am not one to keep silent about anything. I am asking you, as people that believe rape culture and sexism is wrong, to please spread this like wildfire. Not because I want to cause problems but because what happened to me is wrong, plain and simple.
As some of you know, I started a new job this past weekend. My first day was Saturday. On that day I was given a tour of the store by a person who is acting as manager but I don’t think is actually a manager. I was told by the owner that the guy is a friend of his. Upon being shown one of the back rooms I was told the room was “the rape room”. This was said with a laugh. As some of you also know, I have been raped. I do not take this sort of thing lightly. I replied with “That’s not okay.” The guy, Julian (who is supposedly a lawyer in real life), replied with “It’s okay if they can’t talk”. I stayed silent after that because I didn’t know what else to say. Later that same day Julian came up to me and put his arm around me pulling me close to his body. He did this unprovoked and without my permission.
Through the rest of Saturday and all of Sunday I was repeatedly told what a good job I was doing. I was told that I was going to be kept on and I was given the green light for various things around the shop. I had very few interactions with customers because I was in training but the few I had were pleasant and even resulted in sales and new comic subscriptions. Despite all that, the rape room kept eating at me. It made me feel very unsafe. So Sunday night after my shift I went back to the store and told the owner. He brushed it off, said it wasn’t a big deal. I didn’t push it because I really wasn’t trying to make waves. I mostly just wanted him to know.
Yesterday I was off. Today I went in and was not even allowed to walk in the door. The guy, Julian, fired me. He claimed that there was a customer complaint about me but I don’t believe that for one second. I had hardly any interactions with customers and the few I did have was in his presence with him training me. I honestly fully believe the issue here is that I dared to speak up about the rape room and the unwanted touching. And yes, I want people to know. This is not okay. This is geek culture at some of its worst. I am appalled to find out what goes on behind the scenes and to have my voice and my safety (and the safety of other girls) silenced in favor of some sort of guy code.
Please spread the word. Please do not shop there. Let’s show them that men can’t get away with this sort of thing. They have a Facebook page and a Twitter. I’m not suggesting anyone harasses them but I think it would be perfectly reasonable to politely voice any concerns/upset about this. A number of people on Twitter (including author Jenny Trout) have already tweeted about what just happened to me. Please join them.
Mwuahaha…wait till you guys see what I have in my little hands…
The Vision by Marko Djurdjevic.
What it was going to be, we were trying to complicate the relationship between Cap and his S.H.I.E.L.D agent friends. If Hawkeye got a call from S.H.I.E.L.D saying Captain America is a fugitive, would he listen to that call or not listen to that call? That sequence actually was heartbreaking for us to cut it. I think it ultimately might have been a conflict with Renner’s schedule. But there was a great sequence where Hawkeye was chasing Cap through Washington D.C. there was an awesome sequence where they confronted each other in a ravine on the outskirts of D.C. and Hawkeye was shooting a series of arrows closing in on Cap, Cap closing in on him. And then Cap took him down and he realized for the first time that Hawkeye was trying to trick S.H.I.E.L.D, where he whispered something into Cap’s ear that Cap had a tracker on his suit and to punch Hawkeye to make it look real, because there was a Quinjet hovering above where they were watching the feedback back at S.H.I.E.L.D. So it was a cool sequence.
fudebusho said: 38
I have, over the years, had a few very long reviews left on some of my stories. Some of these have turned into long-term friendships (looking at octoberland) and kept me writing when I might have thrown the towel in otherwise.
The best kind are the ones where people admit that you’ve made them cry. Not because I’m evil and enjoy that (well…) but because someone having an emotional reaction to someone I wrote is the best thing ever.
Possibly one of my favourite things was evendia having an epically long flail here on Tumblr about Not Forgotten, which made me super happy because Not Forgotten is my favourite thing I’ve ever written but not many people have read it compared to some of my other stories. I tried to find it again but it’s not in my tags or my likes :(.
Awww. :) I still remember those early days clearly. I was, and am, continually impressed with your skills as a writer and for what it’s worth, always value your friendship. miaokuancha and I were actually talking about Smoke & Mirrors tonight. I understand why you might have stepped away from it but it is a wonderful story.
The good new is *whispers* I wrote some of it last night and I’m adding some more to it tonight.
I feel so inspired right now but alas, I have to go into the shop. I guess I can’t complain seeing as I’ll be surrounded by comic books and there are certainly worse fates in the world but still. Maybe tonight.